:(

I hate to add to my own negativity, but today royally sucked.

I won't go into specifics but today was overwhelming, frustrating, emotionally demanding and mainly...physically impossible. My body decided to give up on me and would not allow me to do everything I needed to do. I hate that. It's annoying, frustrating, difficult, embarassing, and it leaves me with one emotion: anger.

My heart and hopes are big. My motivation is strong. I work 110%. My body gives me 50% effort. :(

I feel like hiding away for the rest of my life. Why try anything new when it's physically impossible for me to complete. I want to be better. I'm tired of being sick.

Yuck.