He is there.

I wrote down some of the specifics of this in an iPhone note when I woke up this morning. I didn't ever want to forget.

Dream Log

4/19/2014

Wow. 

Last night I dreamt vividly of fears that have weighed on my heart for years. The panic of being trapped in these scenarios woke me throughout the night.  Made restless and not wanting to fall back to sleep into these nightmares; each time I closed my eyes and drifted away, my mind took me back to a place I didn't want to be. (My dreams betray me. Though, I can distract myself during the day, my thoughts and worries are often made real in my state of rest.) Sadly, I was unable to conquer any of my fears in these dreams.

One by one, these situations played out poorly and I could feel myself losing control, slowly in my sleep. On some level of understanding, I was aware that I was sleeping but I couldn't wake myself up enough to escape my thoughts. I lost myself in my fears at some point in the night and remember feeling scared and sad that I was repeatedly defeated.

 Before I woke up for the last time, I recall dreaming that I was standing on a tall  mountain away from all of the bad. When I looked down, I could see images of the chaos and fears of my life. However, the sun was beaming on my back so strongly and I could literally feel God with me. I knew that he was real and was really with me. No fears existed on that mountain. 

What a special promise.

Sin and fear can creep into your mind, but God's love and peace surpasses all of this if we allow him into our lives. He is all you need. His grace is sufficient for you.

I've been a Christian a long time. Not always a good one. Often a pretty foolish one. I still experience times in my life when I have a really hard time connecting with God. In times when my fears and sin overwhelm me, I don't understand how to talk with God. I push him away. I lose that intimate connection with him, and view him as an entity in the sky. 

God, thank you so much for this dream.

Even when I suck at relationships (mainly with you), you love me. Your peace reigned over my thoughts and reminded me that you are great. Your grace covers all of my sin.

No other words are needed.

He is there.

Goodnight friends, 

Love you all :)

Tiff

Dear future husband, (My perspective on dating/ relationship/ future spouses)

Disclaimer: I have a feeling this may be hard to read  and may receive some judgment because this is not a typical perspective in our world today, but it's my perspective and the only one I want.

Hey boy hey,

(Don't worry. I'm editing this so that I don't invade my personal boundaries on the interwebs. We'll talk more in the future. :P)

These thoughts have been a long time coming, and at some points were nearly given up on. I've had some clarity with the subject of you lately; and I want to write it down for us so that I can remind myself of it when I start to act up again. ;) We both know I lose focus pretty regularly.

Is it time yet?
I'm 27 now and the familia and friends think that I am not putting enough effort into finding you. They tell me not to be shy and that I just need a little practice with putting myself out there. Talking to boys has never been my strong suit and never will be. I'm very ok with that. I have a feeling you will be too.

 Many have tried to set me up in hopes of finding you, to no avail. Because of these efforts, I am extremely private about all "hey, I like you" situations. I've pursued some pretty half  hazard quasi-relationships with guys in hopes of figuring out who I was and what kind of a person I would want to spend most of my days with. Most, who did not understand my heart and did a crap job of taking care of it. A few, in particular, who did not value it and just used me to make themselves feel good. I knowingly accepted this because I thought that's what it took to date, put yourself out there, live with no regrets...and if I'm honest...it's very hard to wait for you for so long. Loneliness can be disheartening and seriously mess with your self esteem. I've been pretty foolish with who I've give pieces of my heart to with dating, and for that I'm sorry.

I love you, but I am not looking for you.
Let me explain.
I have prayed for you since I was a little girl. I have talked to God about you, most nights (with the exception of some angry and dark periods of my life in which, I closed my heart to the possibility of you). However, I never really hoped  for you or dreamed of you. When I was super young I would pray that God would keep you safe and remind you that I loved you. Slowly my prayers progressed into: help him to make wise choices, protect his heart, give him a good day, surround him with love, pleaseeeee help him to love music so I can respect him, keep dem hos away from my man, help him develop a deep love and passion for you, God, help him grow into a man that will lead me in my faith and change my flat tires. :) I didn't have a wedding planned out or dream of a beautiful wedding dress. I probably won't ever get real silly over that stuff either.
I'm the kind of girl that would accept a marriage proposal with a twisty tie on our way home from work. Amber says I shouldn't admit that and I might need to raise my standards on that one. Hah! She's probably right (thank God for wise friends, right?)

I don't believe in Prince Charming. Actually, I really don't like Prince Charming. He's dull, stuffy, and is way too prepster for me. Hah, sorry man. Don't get your panties in a wad. You're special to me and being that I am addressing this to future husband, I believe you are the only one for me. Someday I will choose you and you can be Prince Sometimes Charming. I anticipate that you're going to be more of my best friend and eternal #mcm. I like it when my married friends do that. I think it's too cute. To me you're not a hope or a dream, though. You are a promise. You are worthy of the sacred commitment I made to God when I was 16. One which I meant with my whole heart and will honor and keep until wedding time... and then it's so on. ;P  God put you in my heart when I was 7, and I believed that someday you'd show up in my life when it was time.

Because I'm not looking

So yeah, I'm working on building friendships. I've been trying to survive this big ol' dating world, man. Gettin' to know people slowly. It's a doozy. Silver lining is that I have some funny stories to share later on. Hopefully you do too. I like those. I'm not too concerned with your past. You are wonderful the way you are and hopefully your past has shaped you and made you into a person who you want to be.

This is probably awkward to bring up since I love you and all, but I'm waiting for you indefinitely. I'm not trying to find you. In the meantime, I might look a lot like someone who's chosen single life. Someone I love, who knows me extremely well, gave me some books about embracing single life last week and I have been enjoying them. A lot of good advice.  Hopefully I won't shut the door on the dating world, but it's pretty lame these days. I'm finding more happiness in my relationship with God, being a part of my community, my friendships, my family, even in the small victories in my job. I'm just not invested in looking for a person to complete me. Man translation: You will have to pursue me. Ha! I promise I won't play games, but I've done enough of the "Wanna go on a date?" over the last 11 years and I'm pretty over it. That mindset is total crap! Girls are too sensitive and vulnerable for that nonsense. We're precious and it's ok to wait for people who recognize that and want to treat you that way.

Today I was surrounded by so many old folks at this cool folk festival. I loved watching them interact. They are completely adorable. The thought occurred to me, what if I wait my whole life and meet someone when I'm in my 70's? That would be extremely precious, I think...and in the meantime I may just live a life full of purpose and be content with what God has give me.

Because I guess what I' trying to say

Is that I do have faith that you exist. Even though that has been extremely hard for me to admit lately. I like to believe I can do it all on my own...but really, God sends me people who pick up my slack all the time. Thanks God! In the meantime, enjoy your life! That's what I'm planning on doing! I'll meet up with ya later.


Love ya :)

Tiff

Lessons I'm Learning: Who I Want to Be

Dedicated to my future progenies  (that's True Blood talk for baby Vampires, but I just mean children). You probably don't exist yet (unless you're hanging out with another family right now) but I think about how much I love you often. I hope I do a half way decent job of living this out for future you. I promise it's important enough that I'm founding my life on it now.

First let's talk about role models. We all have them. Maybe they're celebrities, musicians, artists, authors, sport stars. Or maybe they're people in your life that mean a lot to you and you aspire to emulate.Who you choose to reflect can have a big impact on who you allow yourself to become and how you live your life.

When I was little, I had a role model, my momma. I dreamed of having a lovely voice like hers, being a mommy like her and mostly of being as beautiful as her. I wanted long hair, to wear pretty makeup, big girl shoes, and long swirly dresses that twirled when I would spin.

I really sought after this. I would dance around the house writing my own "songs". That's a generous description. Most of these "songs" were about kitties and doggies and were seriously lacking in substance. Also, I always had a baby doll in my hand that I was rocking and taking care of. My brother would steal them from me and smash their faces in. Which of course completely devastated me, until their faces would pop back out. I would sneak into mom's makeup when she was cooking dinner, put on her high heels and her swirliest dresses, and strut my little stuff with my hand on my hip around her room singing about my kitties and doggies. Do not be deceived by shy Tiffany. I've been known to work it. ;)

These sorts of activities carried on for quite some time. Sometimes even now, I enjoy "borrowing" from her closet and trying out her new makeup. Only now-a-days, it's more likely you'll see her borrowing an outfit from me. You're welcome, mom! 

I got older and the people I chose as role models changed. For a while it was the Pink Ranger, then it was Michelle Kwan, Miss Clavel, Sarah Plain and Tall, Meg from Little Women, News reporter April, Belle, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Ruth, Jeff the Girl, etc. etc. Can't say I picked out bad role models. Just always had some sort of standard in mind for myself that I saw in other people. In high school and college, I set my standards a little higher. It was Abigail Adams, oh and Hayley Williams (cause, duh).
I always told myself, "I want to be like ____________ some day"...and for whatever dumb reason, that motivated me in the moment to be someone different from myself. I still do this. Mostly with fashion bloggers, authors, musicians, friends, educators, etc., etc.

Maybe you can have an easier time with this issue than I do. That's great, congrats! Hah. I struggle with this a lot. I allow myself to believe I am not good enough and I'm always comparing myself to others.All this looking up to other people, geez. Kinda impossible to live up to...and kinda looks a little like envy. As ugly as that sounds. No matter how humble you try to be about it. Wanting what others have, is never a healthy way of living and frankly it's not want God wants for you. Has ya wondering what standard you're living your life...and wishing that you didn't always fall so short in comparison to others.

I was reminded of this after a discussion with a friend about my joy yesterday. This brilliant lady whose shoes I used to steal, said to me recently, "COMPARISON IS THE THIEF OF JOY." I'm pretty sure Teddy Roosevelt said it first, but it's cool, ma. This hit me hard today while I was driving home.
When you live in a way that you never allow yourself to be enough, you are stealing away your opportunity for joy. Scratch that, when you focus more on what you don't have and want, you are robbing yourself of the opportunity to experience God's joy NOW. There is so much beauty and joy in who God has created you to be and the experiences you may have now. Don't lose who you are in the future person you want to be. You don't need a pound of makeup, a rockstar voice or a fake accent to make you special. You already are. Just the way you are. *cue Bruno Mars. (Also, I just want to take time out to acknowledge that a fake accent would actually be extremely cool and I fully support you doing more of that. I will do one with you as well!)

All that being said, In Proverbs 31 the Bible  does talk about the kind of woman that is a pretty good gauge for us lady folk to pray about being like and seek after. She is a virtuous woman and she's the kind of gal that is a leader in her faith and love for God. Above all else she loves and fears (respects and reveres) the Lord.

Proverbs 31:30

"Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised."

I wish I could go back and explain to little me, "You sing about those kitties and doggies, girl...but don't try to be the Pink Ranger. Pink isn't your color. It washes you out and future you doesn't want to fight Megazord every episode...and mostly, Tiff...there is someone who wants you the way you are now. You don't have to be anyone else in his presence. He loves your silly sense of humor and calm spirit and he wants you to experience true joy in him now and forever. Stay focused on him. Make him your bestie.

So, who I want to be...
Someone rooted in Christ. One who respects and fears the Lord. A woman who finds their value and joy in a life spent with her creator. No matter how many blessings or pitfalls. Above all else, one who praises him with all that she is.

Well,
That's all she wrote. :)

P.S. Would love to discuss, if you are interested in chatting. Feel free to comment below. Or chat in person.

 Love you all!
Tiff

Lemonade

Person reflections on God, life, love and the in-between.

There is so much I don't know right now.

 I don't know what I want to do with my life, what job I should work, where I should live, how or if I should date, if I even want a family anymore, if I should move and try something new, how to best support my family while still allowing myself to be young, how to put up distance with people who hurt you while still showing them Christ's love, who am I? What part of me am I able/willing to give others? How to balance my health, how to be intimate with God when dealing with anger,being confident in who God made me without being self centered, etc, etc.

I'm going to be super honest. I've been struggling with depression again since the last transition with moving home and some days are just really hard to keep my head above water when overwhelmed physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. The cycle is so controlling and it takes every ounce of strength I have to get up most mornings and choose to live in joy. I have to stay really focused on healthy things that motivate me towards growth. I've always seen myself as a strong person, and  I don't allow myself to fall too deep into the control of self deprecating thoughts. Some days are so hard to connect with my creator, though, with clouded thoughts looming over me that I am struggling to fight off.

There's a laundry list of things I've tried and am eager to try in the future that I am hoping will help me get to the next step.

However,

There is one thing I know.

When I start to feel that pain and sadness, God's love always comforts me. He cares so much. 

I may not know what tomorrow will bring but I know who I want to be today, tomorrow and every day after that.

A woman who loves God above all else. 

No matter where I land tomorrow or ten years from now, I want to serve him daily with my life.

Whether I am in a massive group of people or alone in a quiet place. I will worship

 him with every ounce of who he has made me.

I want to genuinely loves others and not be afraid to extend compassion, support and encouragement. I will love all, without judgment or reservations.

I want to keep my eyes focused on him and allow him to lead the way to where he wants me. I've been messing my life up lately, struggling to hold onto the last bits of control I have.

It's time to let go.

 Not because I'm giving up on my dreams. Because my only dream is to live for Christ every day. I want to exist in love and obedience to my heavenly father who cares for me.

Today is day 1. I'm ready.

As a really beautiful promise, God has been working on renewing a passion in my heart. I'm not ready to share it yet, but am prayerfully considering new possibilities. I'm super happy about this. :)

Love,

Tiff

The Cutest

My mom told me the other day that every morning when she and my dad wake up, they take turns praying for each other.

This makes me smile.

To love Jesus above all else and serve him with their lives and in their relationship.

I want that someday.

This is majorly adorable.

Tiff

Life Update: Kid Love

My heart expanded today...

Let me explain,

I've felt a little lost lately. Something about recent changes and then again lack thereof, have pushed me back a couple steps. Opening up to people will always be a challenge for me. Particularly this season in my life. There are less people my age that I can share common experience, etc,etc with. When you can't relate with others, it's not easy to push yourself to foster healthy relationships.

At some point, you find yourself ready to run away and try to change your life on your own because of your unhappiness. The thought of someone caring for you or showing you empathy, worst of all sympathy,  makes you ill because you are so used to being the only one you have to rely on. 

OR, you push past how you feel and seek God and allow him to use this time of your life.

I don't want to retreat back to the past girl who hid her heart away from everyone. Mainly God. Feeling God's love so strongly in my existence every day now makes me want to shout it loud for everyone to hear. It's real and it's too beautiful to run from.

But if you choose the second one, he will eventually lead you back to others to experience community (good, challenging and sometimes painful). You may even make a mess of things along the way. I do that often. Social interaction. Ah. Does. Not. Compute.

Before you run, take another step back. 

Don't worry over how far back you've gone. You are loved by your heavenly father. You are of great value to him. He thinks you're swell no matter the degree of your progress. Stop trying to imagine the destination. Try not to compare yourself to others. God didn't create you alike. There is no expectation or rule book for your  life.

Let go. Love God. Live with others. Experience your life.

I've had a particularly difficult time in my job lately. Trying to understand why I continue to teach. How I'm going to manage the emotional, physical and mental stress of this career in my life... If I can reasonably manage it and future dreams. Primarily because it takes a lot of time and dedication and does not allow for a social life the same way other jobs do.

Thinking about it is exhausting.

My heart was a little bruised this morning and my brain reeling from the massive work load I had to accomplish.Walking into the school, I had the strongest urge to run away and hide.

I trudged through my work load and tried to manage the kids before specials as best as I could. When it came time to pick up kindergarten from music, I unlocked the gate and looked over at the very wiggly line. The littlest kindergartner was standing at the front of the line holding out his arms for me again. (He has some sensory needs which cause him to feel very scared. He asks for hugs every time he feels overwhelmed.) I smiled at him and walked closer to the line, he hugged me and placed his tiny hand in mine. We led our line through the gate,  hand in hand, and I glanced down at him. Biggest smile. In that moment I knew he felt loved and secure. I did too.

I am so lucky. Every day he shows me love. Even when he's yelling at me, hah. He now knows how to yell, "I am scared, Ms. Heath! I need a hug!". All of my concern about how I will manage my life... This career IS NOT about me. It is NOT a burden. It is a ministry and I am gaining from the love of these kids as much as they are benefiting from what I teach them. I may be tired, but everyday that I spend with them is a day that my life has been influenced by the heart of a child.

Later this afternoon, during first grade station time, I overheard the blue table having a theological discussion. Who is stronger? God or Hulk? Then it bunny trailed to who made God? Does God have a mom? My mom says God is the strongest. The majority ruled that that made the most sense.

How special.

I really do love these kids. They are my family. Sometimes my life stress overwhelms me, but man...here is an opportunity daily to share in love with amazing people. They don't know all of the pain, hurt, sadness, and fear of the world. They write each other cute notes that say, "I like you. Thanks for being my friend". 

They run to you to tell you as soon as someone gets a paper cut...and don't even try to suggest to them that it is not important. EVERYONE and EVERYTHING is important to them.

They are community in it's purest form. On this week of love, I get to be surrounded by the truest kind. Kid love.

My heart expanded today... and it's because God has me in a place where I am being forced to grow and experience love (even in a challenging state) daily.

Happy Valentines Week, friends.

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Doors.

On waiting....


Hey God,

Why you gotta shut so many doors so hard?

Maybe leave one cracked for me so it doesn't feel so scary out here all alone? The blinds are closed tightly  but I can hear everyone inside partying without me. I just want to be part of something bigger than myself. I tried to shove myself through a couple doggie doors  recently but it totes wasn't happening.

Love you,
Tiff

P.S. Thanks for the flashlight. I've used it to ward off some solicitors and had a light saber fight with a strange new friend.

P.P.S. I'll be here, waiting patiently. How about making the next door you open up, a portal to a fantastic new dimension? Something with Unicorns...nah...make it Minotaurs...or maybe it's Centaurs. I just want to meet Mr. Tumnus.

At least consider it? :)

Good talk , God.

She's a Wallflower

Forward

I cannot express enough how much I truly do not want to write this blog...which is precisely why I am doing it. My goal in life is to always make myself do things that are good for me that I am strongly opposed to.

Chapter 1: WallFlower

Hello world, I am reserved...oops I mean Tiffany. 

On the contrary, anytime there is a something in my life that I spend a great deal of time praying about, I assume that I might just not be the only one that feels this way.

*Deep breath*

Hey you,

You're probably pretty cool.You are independent. You don't mind spending time on your own. You work hard. You find a lot of confidence in your creative ideas and perhaps a lot of fulfillment in the work you do. *High five*. 

You  may know confidently who you are and who you want to be. Or perhaps you sense a calling/purpose on your life that you are trying to figure out. You love fiercely and loyalty is a HUGE deal to you because you've been used and hurt by people closest to you, in the past. You don't find people very often who can live up to that loyalty.You like to spend a lot of time with others but struggle with letting others in on your real feelings, emotions, and desires. 

Giving is easy. It's second nature to you. It's impossible for you to ask. You don't like to feel like you need people...mostly because you don't want to need people. You are angry when you discover that you honestly need people.

You may like to date around because you're too scared to let anyone get too close to your heart, but you want to be in a relationship. This way, when they hurt you...your world won't be over and you can scrape your pride off the ground because you didn't actually let them have all of it. Making friends is reasonably easy. Building lasting friendships frightens you because it means you have to live up to those unreasonably high expectations you have for other people.

You are easily distracted with projects/hobbies/passions as a way of escaping the weight of your most important commitments in life.You love total strangers easily but struggle with loving yourself. You find yourself doing/saying things to keep people at arms distance because that's what you've known to be easiest for you. 

You are a wallflower. You might have some trust issues. Ha. As I am heavily describing myself, I feel that I can be painfully blunt. Intimacy may be your struggle.

I had a dream 25 days ago (thanks iphone note documentation, *winky face*) that I was in a room full of friends who were all present with their families. I was the only one without one. I tried talking to everyone in the room but no one could hear me. All of the people in the room were chasing their kids and talking about their families. I tried talking louder and louder, but no could hear me. I felt so alone.

I cried when I woke up.

Wooh. Depressing, eh? 

And honest.

That dream really shook me. I try really hard not to feel this way. I surround myself with activities, hobbies, jobs, people, opportunities that I hope to bring me fulfillment. I never EVER want to be a whiny, complainy, naggy girl. I try not to be jealous of others. I'm truly happy for them. I'm an optimist at heart. I like to have a lot of funnnnn. I'm almost always with friends, the fam, at work or numbing my mind with netflix, social media, music or redic entertainment. It's just never enough.

As humans, we were created for companionship. We have a natural need and desire to be wanted and loved. It's not selfish or pathetic. It's intended, by God. Don't question it, butthead. ;)
It should reflect the relationship that God wants us to have with him.

I have known some pretty strong callings on my life since I was 6 or so. I am a nurturer. I am called to take care, protect, love and teach confidence to ( a to be determined people group).
Also, in my present reality... some of these opportunities may have been taken from me, made difficult /delayed,  are patiently waiting in a far off land of make believe, or may not actually be in God's plan for me.
I have a hard time understanding this reality and find myself misplacing my frustrations for the unknown with anger at God.

At the apex of these frustrations, I always push away from God and distract myself with bad choices. Go figure. The only being in the entire universe that can actually fulfill me. In my anger and sin, I know that I will drive a wedge in my pursuit of a  relationship with him. This is a very natural occurrence for me...and you know....it's ok.
God still wants me, even when I allow my selfish pride to usurp my life.

All that being said,

What are some ways to strengthen intimacy with God and others?

-Admitting to God when I'm an idiot. Bigger yet, admitting to God when I need his help. Even bigger, asking God for his help...still bigger, allowing God to help....wait for it......asking other people to pray for me. (I failed at this today, so don't think that I have actual life applied wisdom in this area yet).

-Reading my Bible as often as possible. Starting with an author/time period/book of the Bible that I am interested in and reading an entire chapter at a time, IN CONTEXT. Summarizing the main points and the overall message of the passage. Looking for themes or ways that the passage can be applied in my life/as the church. Study habits that help me pull meaning from very confusing, old timey language. Don't pretend like you understand the Bible the first time you read it either, liar! ;) Also, rereading those same scriptures throughout the week and reflecting on any new meaning you discover.
If you can, read it with friends. Someone always points out at least a few things that I miss. Discusssssss :)

-Prayer time. Throughout the day. Like talking to a friend. Talking to him about others and intervening for them. Telling him my thoughts, dreams, hopes. Learning to trust him once I have gone to him in prayer.
Prayer time with others. Oh yesssss....awkward prayer time. Get in on that!
Prayer time with others does not mean we all need to hold hands and take turns flashing our prayer warrior stripes. It can be calling a friend on the phone and praying for them. Gathering together in the same room and praying silently, etc.etc...or my personal favorite....letting someone else pray out loud while you silent agree with them. Ha ha ;)

-Hang out with buds and talk about Jesus.
Also, hang out with enemies and talk about Jesus.
Also, make your enemies your buds. (Tell me when you've mastered that one. Cause I haven'r figured that one out yet.)

-Live in community. Ahem...commUNITY. No man is an island, brah. Sure have fun and party. But allow people into your life. Invite them to your home. Talk to them about your day. Ask them about theirs. Hug them. Preferably for more than 8 seconds...also, pet their hair and say strange things like, "pretty pretty".

-Serve others. Watch their babies, send them a sweet note/text. Jump their crappy cars for them (thanks, guys :D), give to those in need: time, love, food, shelter,  cheesy jokes, joy.
Make friends with one new person every week. Pray for that person.
 LET OTHER PEOPLE SERVE YOU. (I will try harder to let down the walls on this one).

-Worship God. In your life. In your actions. The way you treat other people. The things you set your mind on. In musical form. Sing your heart out of that's the way you do it. Danceeeeeeee. Make a joyful noise. Maybe this one, "Yippppeee!". :P

-Love others. People are going to let you down every now and then. You'll let them down every now and then too. Learn to forgive and apologize. Build trust with one another. Don't build walls when someone messes up. Help them up. God will always be there to carry you when you need it the most.

-Laugh a lot. Laugh at yourslef. Laugh with others. Laugh at others...(Today I rang the quiet bell at school and this kid started doing his happy dance (little country jig) with 4 pencils in his hand. He stabbed himself in the eye with one and shouted, "OWWWWW! My eye! Miss Heath, MY EYYYYYE!". Laughter might have escaped me prior to attending to his need.. Or maybe just watch Jim Gaffigan or Zach Galifinakas. That's a pretty solid perscription. :P

-Enjoy this day. Rejoice in this day. We aren't promised tomorrow. Live it up!
I shall leave you with this,

Iphone note written 16 days ago,

I went to a birthday party for a friend's son today. My mind was a little lost in the conversation about childbirth and breast pads for a few minutes. However,  I closed my eyes for a second and realized that I was in the same scenario that I had dreamed about the other day. Only, I wasn't sad AT ALL. My heart felt really full and I was happy to be surrounded by so much love. Thank you God for loving friends to share life with. 

:)
Hey friends, pray for me. Ok?
Also, let me know, in message or in person, how I can pray for you.

Tiff





  

Sunday Soundtrack: Lerv

  Happy Sunday folks,

Hope yours was swell. :)
My heart has been feeling really full lately and this week I've been listening to some love dovey songs.

For You, Sharon Van Etten

http://youtu.be/-6QhP4xDHIo

So this is Goodbye, William Fitzsimmons

http://youtu.be/zwB56HQLFJY

L-O-V-E, Tiff

http://youtu.be/Mc_kpzEUWgU

:) Cheers to a great week

Sunday Soundtrack

Hola :)
I miss blog a log loggin'. It relaxes me.
I think I'll begin again. :)  Decided!

Here's my Sunday Sountrack :)
Pretty Tunes- Dustin O'Halloran "Fragile N. 4"


Makes my heart expand and get all squishy and junk.


Just for fun. Sorry for the bug eyes. Dem' glasses had a mega glare. Blind me makes interesting facial expressions. :D